What has happened to me?

[Stella Mari De Souza]

Stella Mari De Souza

I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...

What has happened, I am lost, depressed, and not caring for my self or anyone once more. Like the day I left my baby to Jisa's care. It is happening all over again. I set my self down on the soft sand, long dress and all. I closed my eyes, large tears trailing down my rosy cheeks. I could not be any more sad. Everyone all around me was so happy, small children digging sandcastles and laughing, parents hugging, telling stories. Teenage love not so far away. This beach was just too happy.

Closing my eyes once more, I brought my legs to my chin, burring my face in my dress. I was a terrible mother, I was selfish, and wanted nothing more to be perfect. But it was not and could never be. I was young, I have no family, She has no dad. What more could be wrong.

Well, all i wanted to do was finish school and do my dream job, be normal. But the day happened and I was turned, nothing after that can be changed. All I wanted was a life, one that i would get old and have a true family. But no I had to ruin that. Looking once more around my green eyes could see nothing much had changed, the sky was getting darker, twilight.And now many humans where ready to go home. I was not.

I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone