{Misunderstood}-Ace

[Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor]

Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor
When you said,
This life is gonna shake me...

My slow footsteps are silently absorbed into the forest floor. I can't shake the thoughts. Murderer. Having killed so many people, people, with families like mine once had been, I can't stand myself. Blood covers my clean hands. It's driving me crazy. Everything, anything, nothing. My black hair hangs down on both sides of my face. My terribly flawless face. Years ago I should have rotted in the ground with the rest of my family. There isn't a doubt where I am going if I ever die. Scars should marr my face, if there was a chance of me living on my sixteenth birthday. My heart aches, my mind runs crazy. I want to tear my hair out, I want to disappear. The world would be better off without me. I am quivering in miniscule amounts. I can hear the screams of innocent Super Naturals, killed because I didn't know better back then. My hands clutch at my ears, wanting to block out the guilt and hurt. Head throbbing, I stop walking. My throat closes up and I want to cry, but I will not. I lean against a tree, pain written in my face. Sliding down to the ground I bring my legs closer to my body and hide my face in my knees.

The screaming. The horrible guilt and torture. I want to cry out for help, I won't and I know it. Suffering in silence. Hiding behind violence. Only my personality isn't an act as most think. It is me. I am it. And I hate what I have become.

You said,
This world is gonna bring trouble on my soul.

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[Ace Roberto Lucian]

Ace as usual loved the forest, he once more ran this day, bare feet, bare chest, only shorts. This day was suppose to be his own, his day to run, his day to clear his head of Jisa. That day she had seemed so perfect, dinner had seemed just the right idea, but now he was not sure, Jisa did not seem as if she was the girl for dinner, sing Ace slow down, he smelled that scenet, sweet like roses.

Ace ran faster, his mind starting to custom to 2000's way, he no longer cared for holding hands or maybe a peck on the cheek though everything else still bothered him some. Looking around he saw the body of Jisa, the girl he says he loved. He slowed down to a fast walk, but soon to realize she was not well.

Ace notices as she bringing her face in her knees, most people did not do that when happy or content, he ran know only a two feet or so away now. ''Jisa, love''. Ace would not pop out at her this time, she seemed much to fragile, sad. Maybe even mad. Her face was of torture, he turned to face her, but not touching her at all, he wanted to see if she would look up at all. He was so worried, Ace had no idea what do to. ''Let me help!".

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[Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor]

Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor
When you said,
This life is gonna shake me...

My acute hearing picked up the sound of feet running, but barely touching the floor. The flight of a vampire. I am not thinking straight, so the obvious suspiscion of Ace doesn't reach my shattered mind. The screaming in my ears picks up and then drops into a loud silence. The darkness of my closed eyes isn't enough. Nothing helps, nothing ever has and nothing ever will. The silence helps only a little, but anything is good. Ace's voice finds it's way into my chaotic silence, but my anger only flares at this. No one could see me like this. No one. Who was he to be calling me love anyway? We were only going out a little bit and we only knew each other for about three days now. His plea to let him help didn't do anything for me, I stayed silently buried in my own torturous world. Finally my Tropical Storm blue eyes lift from my knees and I look at him.

"There is nothing anyone can do to help, Ace. It's better to just leave it alone."

You said,
This world is gonna bring trouble on my soul.

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[Ace Roberto Lucian]

Her eyes do not make Ace want to go, bolt, he just looked in to her eyes and keeled down. His hand wanting to reach for hers his eye now just as dull as hers, he was felling her pain. Well at least her pain was bringing him down, making him lost, making him fell for Jisa. All he wanted was for her to be happen. ''I must help you. I would never let you go. I would never let you suffer.''

Ace just looked at her his heart broken, ''I am here for you Jisa, forever''. He sat down by her side of course not touching her just here for support, ''Please tell me..''. His voice, eyes where pleading, if he did not know how could Ace help, and he must, as a man, and lover Ace would keep her alive.

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[Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor]

Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor
When you said,
This life is gonna shake me...

It's really very funny how men can go and say that they would never leave you and all of those promises that in the end they can never keep. Oh and I am not talking from no experience and just telling from movies. I know. I got the worst end of it, but nobody except me knew it. No one. I feel his helplessness but I can't shake the feeling of hate toward men that I harbored deep inside me. A boy had killed my family, had tried to kill me, had turned me into what I am now. He had broken my shattered heart further. That is something you just never forget. Forever. I very seriously doubted anything was forever. After all, Life is temporary.

"Fine. If you want to know. I have killed many people, innocent people with familes. I hate myself for it. It's killing me. A just ending I do suppose for such a person as me."

You said,
This world is gonna bring trouble on my soul.

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[Ace Roberto Lucian]

Ace watched her face, his own mimicking her's, Ace wondered what she wasnt thinking, what she wanted, what her heart wanted.

"That is horrible Jisa, but the past is the past you have to live in the moment, you taught me that''.

His face was not one of horror but understanding, of love. Ace truly liked this girl no matter how little he knew her. His heart ached for this girl, every muscle in his body wanted her, needed her, and will have her alive.

''We will go threw this together, take my hand''

Ace stood up and held his hand to her, his eyes like flame, face determined, he wanted Jisa happy, or as happy as she would be. Jisa would live!

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[Anya Louzana De Souza]

I completely understand his words. What he doesn't get though is that because the past is set in stone, whatever you regret stays a regret. It haunts you for the rest of your life. Perhaps Ace has nothing to regret or to hide. The thing is that I certainly do and it has made me who I am for so long. Being me is not a good thing. I shake my head, sometimes I wonder how people can say one thing one day and then the next just go against it. It may be that the world is full of confusion, but that should not happen.

"Ah but Ace, the past makes you who you are. It is an experience, you can't change what you are."

I roughly quote what he had said. Not accurately at all but it would do. He went on to stand up and offer me his hand and put across some very live filled and determined words. I felt like I was in a cheesy movie all of a sudden. Sighing I got up on my own and looked at him.

"Ace, there are really some things you can't change no matter what."

[Ace Roberto Lucian]

Ace sighed, he could not believe she had just used his words against her. Ace sighed, he was mad, frustrated and sad all at once, his eyes where like fire now, burning hot. ''Yes, one is whom they are by their past but you must learn how to live in the present. Jisa that is what i am trying to do. Do not kill yourself emotionally because of this, please''. Ace was truly upset his voice harsh, and loud, you could say his husband/father side from the 70's was coming out, though it was Jisa, he had to calm her down stop her.

''Yes, you can not change the past but you can certainly change the future, and for the better''. She did not take his hand but Ace crossed them over his large chest, his voice calming down. He was truly upset, life was a gift and you had to live it to the fullest, that was what Ace always tried to do, but Jisa, he had no idea what do to.

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[Anya Louzana De Souza]

It wasn't satisfying to prove Ace wrong, at all but my stubborn personality goaded me on. My hatred for men and boys, myself and life raised in me. At times like these I fought because I am vulnerable. That is the only reason any one really fights. I guess this is our first argument as a couple. No one ever liked this milestone but it always happened. I stared him right in the eye as he tried to right my wrong and make me feel better. The trouble was that I don't think I could feel bettter about myself or anything. If I ever did it would take a day or two of quiet silence to myself. He didn't want me to kill myself emotionally and he said it with real anger. Well guess what buddy?

"Only you wouldn't see that I am already dead emotionally, you barely know me."

I know I'm being a bitch but I guess I'm just not feeling the greatest today. Soon my mind clears and I stand defeated. I don't want to fight anymore. I just want to sit down and relax in silence. I hold my hand up to Ace before it falls back down to my side.

"Stop. I will believe what I believe and the same for you. I just don't want to fight anymore." 

[Ace Roberto Lucian]

Ace watched her face and listened to her. His eyes burning. He hated for this to be their first argument and so he just gave up, hands by his side, face calmer, but there was something in him that he could just not hold back.

''I know you enough to tell you I love you''. Ace then gently grabbed Jia's face, and landed a kiss on her soft perfect lips. It left good, this was the first real kiss in his very long life. But he soon let go and staggered back, he remembered aall the times his father, mother and everyone else had old him that just a kiss would be a sin, and especially if you forced it.

''Im so sorry Jisa''. Ace was shocked, his face totally sorry for what he ha done. He wanted to apologize but for some reason he felt as if he had just lost her.

[Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor]

Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor
When everything falls apart,
Your arms hold me together...

Ace tells me that he knows me enough to love me. I don't know if I can believe him. How can anyone like me, let along love me? We've only known each other three or more days. I like his company, and it provides me with something to do when I teach him about being a 2010 boy instead of 1960 man. But I wouldn't be able to tell if I actually loved him, that would take time because my heart has been long emotionless. His hands reached forward and I flinched back a little before he caught my face with his warm hands and kissed me. It was gentle and soft, I found myself kissing him back. He staggered backwards as if remembering something, and I knew what it was. I stood there staring at him wide eyed like a little kid, my heart was fluttering and faint but warm. He apologizes and I stop staring.

"It's alright Ace."

Oh what could I say to make him see that it was more than okay? He probably wouldn't believe me if I just said that. I would have to put it into lesson time. A little smirk crossed my mouth at the thought.

"If two people are going out then it's completely okay. And besides, I kind of liked it."

I startled myself with the last part, that was not meant to slip out. But I had liked it and I think I could possibly love Ace. I trusted him. Love can make you trust people, and since I hadn't been able to trust before, I hadn't been able to love. I guess I'm just as lovesick as the rest of the world now.

When everything falls apart,
You're the only hope for this heart.

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[Ace Roberto Lucian]

Ace could have sworn he had done some thing wrong, but Jisa had kissed him back, it was a complicated moment. His wide eyes looked at her face, she seemed calmer now. She even looked as if she was considering loving him. The vampire tilted his head as she said it was okay, his hand now crossed over his chest. "If you believe so then I say its okay too", Ace was smiling now, he felt better for what he had done though what she said next surprised him. The man had no idea how to react.

He just stared his face in total shock but he knew what to do, "If you say so," Soon his hand reached around her back one under her chin, Ace slowly brought Jisa closer truly hoping this was okay. And nest thing he knew the blue eyed vampire was kissing her, not just a soft peck, not it was with passion. Ace did not want to let her go, but he did, the vampire had gone way over his own limits. "I truly do love you", his eyes where sweet, his face serene. Ace just wanted Jisa to be happy. And in love.

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[Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor]

Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor
When everything falls apart,
Your arms hold me together...

I don't know what's happening to me. Having been virtually alone for how many years, this was different and strange. Ace's electric blue eyes are wide too, like mine had been. He agrees that if it is okay with me then it is okay with him. I am glad that he believes me, it would have been hard to convince him otherwise if he hadn't. My last sentence shocked him as it had shocked me. Which was slightly amusing because neither of us had expected it. The smile melted off his face as shock replaced it and he answers with an if you say so. Silence threads the air around us as I stare at him my arms crossed over my chest, mirroring him. Then he reached forward for me again and brought me closer, my heart sped up. I'm sure he could hear my heartbeat, being a Vampire and all. I went hot in embarrassment of this realization, I never get embarrassed. I think I truly do love him. My hands were against his bare chest as he kissed me passionately, I kissed him back again.

When he moved away, I didn't want him to but I knew that he had already gone over his limits. Ace tells me that he loves me and I stare at him, knowing what I am going to say too. But I am not completely sure.

"I think I love you too, Ace."

When everything falls apart,
You're the only hope for this heart.

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[Ace Roberto Lucian]

The vampire feels her heart beat it was fast, he could tell she liked it maybe even wanted more but Ace would just have to get use to it. Smiling he grabbed her hand and just held it, it was comfort to him. But her words shocked him once more, though the sweet look never left his face. "I am glad Jisa. I think you do. You are my Jisa." He smiled and looked at the sky for a brief moment it seemed as everything was going right. But Ace was certainly not a 2010 boy. He stil felt awkward with out his shirt, and the kiss made him feel was so good, but in his mind it was bad. "Would you want me Jisa? As a true boyfriend." Yes Ace had finally learned the word, and his electric eyes looked Jisa down, he wanted her bad.

[Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor]

Jisanna Elizabeth Taylor
When everything falls apart,
Your arms hold me together...

Ace grabbed my hand, it was a little gesture. It reminded me of little six year olds holding hands for some reason, cute. Agh okay I needed to stop thinking like a lovesick teenager. Everything I did today was shocking to Ace, to my Ace. I guess it was shocking me too. I am not usually like this I suppose, not in the least. He thinks I love him and I think so too, but again only time will tell. I can feel how awkward he feels, but it doesn't matter, he will get used to living like a nineteen year old in this century soon. Ace was teaching me things too, how to be less serious and spiteful. Perhaps even how to enjoy life like he did. He asks me if I wanted him as a boyfriend and I knew the answer. If only he knew how much I wanted him.

"Yes."

I answer quietly.

When everything falls apart,
You're the only hope for this heart.

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